I was there, unprotected

I was there, unprotected
My head was banging here and there
My body was shaking uncontrolled

I was there, unprotected
I clung on that thing
I don't know what was it (or could I name it?)
It was always there
Be my personal hero

I was there, unprotected
Getting mad, uncontrolled
Freaked out
It ran faster
Faster
Faster
Out of control
Stopped suddenly
then ran again
Turn left
Turn right
Tires screeching
Didn't realize I am a human

I was there, unprotected
My body was shaking
Shivering
Trembling
My eyes, stagnant
My lips, stiff
Frightened

I was sitting in the edge
Tried to think
Contemplating
Questioning "what am I to you?" "what am I to you?" "what am I to you?"
Sobbing
in silent
an hour to spend
Tears were already dry
already wry




I was there, unprotected

(source)

change me, change us.

People change as well as their mind
Sometimes they want to stay
But in the other time they want to leave
Sometimes they found it the best
But in the other time they found it the worst
Sometimes they don't want to give up
But in the other time they want to give up
Sometimes they know it is easy
But in the other time they know it is difficult

Every second is able to change us
from who we really are not into something who we really are
from who we really are into something who we really are not

In us, there are people's mind
we don't live for only one's mind
they are already ready to change us whenever they want to

just hold what is in your hand, and never let it go.





To someone who is in a realm of dream :)

(source)

Just a Moment

It's just a moment in your life to meet a rare chance like this
You just don't know what's going on outside that gate
All you know is just sitting at your position and enjoying such a beautiful sky
He is sunny and bright, it is a very unusual look
He is clear and smooth, it is vividly seen
There he comes
Shows his love and kindness
Gives opportunity for a person like me
Only for savouring and enshrining it on gallery
Feel satisfied with his best shot
Never regret for wasting a-five-minute time of your entire life
Yes
It's just a moment in your life

and just call me a manipulator

Options won't come
to you
Your life has been design to be a dead puppet
Controlled by such a manipulator--like me
and you really have to know
A manipulator has always authority
To control
To command
To possess
You!
as a puppet
The weak
The poor
The lame one
You can neither protest nor complain
a puppet will always be a puppet
It's been arranged
for your life!
Isn't it irony?
human-like physically
but nothing
It is only about a show!
incredibly to appear
fantastically to arise
extraordinarily to emerge
but still
nothing
Manipulator has power
and you
Don't!

Such a pleasure to be your manipulator
I'm much obligated

Marionette

This writing is inspired from mere-assumptions.blogspot.com

Debat, dan Grammar pun Tidak Kau Hiraukan

Pernah ikutan lomba debat? Debat Bahasa Inggris?
Belum pernah? atau pernah? atau sering? sesering apakah Anda mengikuti lomba debat?
Iya, gue pernah ikutan lomba debat, malahan gue "sering" ikutan Debate Competition
Tau rasanya kaya gimana? Nervous pasti, deg-degan udah gak kepikiran lagi, bahkan bolak-balik wc pun sering gue lakukan karna gue sering mules ketika gue dihadapkan pada situasi itu.
Gue ikutan lomba-lomba debat ini ketika gue duduk di bangku SMA, yaaa SMA, hehehehe

Hari itu, gue mesti mempersiapkan argumen dari dua sisi, affirmative dan negative side. Kita belum tau apakah kita berada di negative team ataukah affirmative team, maka dari itu kita mesti mempersiapkan argumen dari sisi negatif dan juga positif. Mosi yang ditawarkan pun beragam, ada 4 mosi, dan masing-masing mosi memang menimbulkan pro kontra.
Debate Competition ini diadakan oleh Dinas Pendidikan Kabupaten Karawang, dan seluruh SMA di Karawang mesti mengirimkan wakilnya untuk maju di ajang ini (alaaah, meuni ajang atuuuh)

kebetulan, tadi gue liat-liat catetan gue yang dulu-dulu, dan adalah si berkas-berkas ini. Gue mencatatat 4 mosi nya pada kertas buram (gak niat banget)

See? betapa gak niat nya gue nulis mosi-mosi ini.
Unfortunately, gue lupa dimana menyimpan catetan gue yang lainnya, yang ketemu cuma ketika gue nulis argumen (positif dan negatif) untuk "pacaran motivate our study" "internet causes moral degradation" dan "television commercial exploit children"
here there are

You know what's funny? There are sooo many grammatical errors there, hahahaha

But lucky me that the adjudicator did not score the grammar, they focused on the content, dan bagaimana cara kita mempertahankan argumen kita, HAHA

Alhamdulilah, pada saat itu, walaupun gue sering melakukan kesalahan grammar, namun speaking gue oke, dan gue mempertahankan argumen juga oke, maka dari itu gue selalu mendapatkan Best Speaker =P

Oia, gue hampir lupa, gue disini jadi second speaker yang tugasnya memberikan evidence dari apa yang telah dibicarakan oleh first speaker. Disini tugas gue sepertinya lebih berat, karena gue juga mesti jadi replied speaker yang tugasnya in the end of our performance, gue mesti meng-conclude semuanya dan juga menjudge bahwa apa yang dibicarakan oleh kompetitor kita itu salah, dan argumen kita lah yang bener hahahaha

Praise the Lord too, kita memenangkan Juara 3 pada Debate Competition yang diadakan Dinas Pendidikan Karawang =P

Yah sepertinya sekian saja, just a brief from me =)
Debat, dan grammar pun tidak kau hiraukan.. it rings right =P

KEPO

KEPO
"kepo bener deh gue"
Tau gak? gue mengenal ke'kepo'an ini semenjak gue kuliah
Gue gak pernah ngepoin orang sebelumnya (ehm, gak pernah =P)
Semenjak gue punya Friendster pun gue gak pernah tuh pengen tau urusan orang lain (taraaaam)
Tapi semenjak si mamang Mark Zuckerberg meng-invent yang namanya Facebook, saat itulah gue menyadari betapa KEPO nya gue
gue bikin Facebook kalau gak salah, SMA kelas 3, yah sekitar tahun 2009
Awal-awal sih, gue gak ngerti how to operate this kinda thing
I thought that Facebook was only the same with Friendster, and I just thought that salah satu fitur unggulan Facebook yaaa cuma bisa chatting aja (walaupun dulu gue pake MIRC untuk chatting mameeeeen, akhirnya I have to admit it, pasrah)
Tapi ternyata nggak gitu, FAcebook punya kelebihan lain, yaitu GUE BISA NGEPOIN ORANG
sebenernya gue kepo ketika gue masuk kuliah (I have mentioned it)
When I admired someone in my college, gue mulai ngepoin dia nya (halaaaaah, yg tau pasti ngapung nah idungnya)
Tapi untungnya, ketika kenal dengan orangnya gue kaga lagi-lagi ngepoin ni orang, HAHAHA
Akhir-akhir ini, iya, akhir-akhir ini, mameeeen
gue kembali ngepoin orang (gue disebut secret admirer atau stalker ya ama tu orang? hihi)
Tau bedanya secret admirer ama stalker? hahaha, find out  by yourself, if you have found it, bilang sama gue, boleh di add d kolom komen =P
Gue gak begitu kenal dengan orang-orang ini, malahan mereka semua acquaintances
Tapi gue personally, gak tau kenapa bisa ampe kepo banget ama orang-orang ini
padahal gue GAK ADA urusan sama sekali sama mereka nya
Bukan cuma dari Facebook pemirsah, tp juga dari twitter, dan pada saat gue pake **, gue juga sering banget kepo di *** (hahahhaa, sial)
tapi untung gue udah gak pake **, menurun lah sudah kekepoan gue terhadap orang ini
Pada saat proses mengepo, gue sering sadar sendiri, dan akhirnya gue berhenti melakukannya (ada apa dengan gue God???)
gue pengen gak jadi kepo lagi, gak, gak pengen.
Apa mungkin hidup gue yg tidak ramai? Ahh tidak tau juga gue
Yang jelas, gue mau menurunkan kadar kekepoan ini, (serius)
I dont want to be stalker
Gue merasa nyaman dengan hidup gue yg sekarang, meskipun banyak gonjang ganjing tentang gue diluar sana
(gue sih adem ayem aja, soalnya insya alloh itu mengurangi dosa gue, hahahaha since I know that I am a beautiful sinner =P)
Yah sekian saja, Oh iya, pesen dari gue
Everyone can be a stalker, it is really possible, but try not to, your life would be more comfortable I'm sure =P

Isn't it cute? =))

Hey there!
I'm here again, back for you again! I know you miss me already =P

What is it now?
yesterday, I just got Kewirus class
We had to invite one of entrepreneurs whom we like
We then decided to invite the owner of Flashy =)
Flashy is running its business on bags and clothing
I think it has a good taste on bags and wallets, I love them since I got a beautiful red wallet from Flashy =)
(I'm gonna upload it later)
But this is not about the wallet I got from Flashy
I'm talking about the design made by a friend of mine.
The design is presented for Flashy as the keepsake
do you wanna see it?
Here it is =)
Isn't it cute?

Okay well, I wanna introduce you all of my friends! But before that, can you guess which one am I?
Yes, nice try! but thank you for guessing =)
I have short hair and the shape of my face is square but I'm not Spongebob squareface *naon
So, can you guess now?
Yes, that's right! that's me! you did it great =))
Okay now, it's time for my friends.. start from my left side, she is Ikha, then move to the top, she is Dayu, move again to the top, the girl wearing veil, she is Diena, in the very top *in the middle* she is Bouyant, in the boyan's right side is Pudar, she is wearing veil and she has so much acne is her face =P, in the middle between Pudar and me, she is Mira.
We are a group in Kewirus class

I have never thought that the design would be very cute and eye-catchy
you did it great, then =))
thank you for helping me and my friends =))
this is memorable =))