"If you want me to change, well I change for good"

Kini, lagi.
Kembali kurajut benang kusut dalam lara.
Kembali berada pada aku yang salah.
Kembali mencoba berubah walau sudah menyerah.

Hey kamu, aku tau kamu cinta bebas
kamu tau aku cinta kamu?
Tapi sudah seharusnya cintaku bukan alasan
alasan kamu menjadi tidak cinta bebas

"If you want me to change, well I change for good"

Biarkan aku yang sakit

Biarkan aku terus menangis

Biarkan aku terus menahan perih

dan...

Biarkan aku belajar

Belajar mengikhlaskanmu

Hingga pada akhirnya

Aku benar-benar bisa melepasmu

tanpa luka...

Aku pernah sepertimu...

Aku pernah menjalani transisi seperti itu
Aku pernah dimana aku berada dalam lubang besar hingga tak temukan sedikitpun cahaya
Aku pernah mengalami titik terendah dalam hidupku
Aku pernah ketika aku memutuskan untuk berubah saja
Aku pernah tidak peduli dengan diriku dan perasaanku
Aku pernah tidak hiraukan wejangan-wejangan para sahabat dan ibuku
Aku pernah tak mau raih tangan-tangan yang berusaha menolongku
Aku pernah menolak berbagai hati yang tulus untuk mencintaiku
Aku pernah berada dalam kelam namun tetap saja hidup

Hey! Aku pernah sepertimu...

Namun kini, aku akan selalu menjadi sepertiku
Aku hanya punya satu kesempatan hidup
dan yang aku mau?
Aku mau menjadi sepertiku
Hanya itu.

Just... Dont let me go

"Never Say Never"
The Fray

Some things we don't talk about
Rather do without
And just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of
Together all the while

You can never say never
While we don't know when
But time and time again
Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

Picture, you're the queen of everything
As far as the eye can see
Under your command
I will be your guardian
When all is crumbling
To steady your hand

You can never say never
While we don't know when
Time, time, time again
Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

We're pulling apart and coming together again and again
We're growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

  

Taken from : www.azlyrics.com

By the time I write this, I am doing my assignment. I have to finish this essay and submit it tomorrow morning.

Accompanied by Ria (My laptop), Gradi (my cellphone), Pinkah and Monyooot (my notebook), Ori (my Oxford Dictionary), a piece of copy entitled "The House on Mango Street", an empty glass of milk, a song by The Fray "Never say Never", and the last is your virtual.

I feel that I have many distraction to do this essay. I haven't finished it yet, I am distracted by blogging. I just want to write what I feel. now I feel like I dont want to write the essay, and I prefer blogging to essay-ing << maksakeun.

Hmm, maybe you can read the lyric of The Fray above, that's what I feel right now.

Your virtual is just not enough, I never can't get enough.

I need the real you to complete this hole digging on me.

Oh ya, talking about the essay I should write more or less 250-300 words. and I have reached 131 words, and I'm afraid I write too much, because once I write, I just can't stop it. Moreover I still got many idea I want to put it into, Goddamnit! what am I supposed to do? err... just write, dont lose your idea, write it down quickly! suddenly remember a tissue from J.co << FYI I LOVE THIS ONE! REALLY!

Tssaaaaah!!! I wish I could reach you wherever you are!

".....And just hold the smile, falling in and out of love...."

"The House on Mango Street" for hours

The House on Mango Street

Been sitting
For hours
Reading the short story entitled "The House on Mango Street"
Many times
No
Thousand times I should read this
To know the story beyond the story

Yes you know
I got troubles
still dont get the point
confused, I am
asked to type it on word
Alright
and sent it through electronic mail
Okay
and voila!
You enlightened this

Many ideas running in this head
Make "The House on Mango Street" work
for hours
Finally...



How lucky I am having you in my life...

while listening to One Republic ft Sara Bareilles "Come Home"

Asa & Kemeja

Katamu...

Apa yang sedang kau lakukan?

Berbaring tanpa raga tak membuatmu kehilangan makna

Kau sematkan aku dalam tiap rajutan benangnmu dalam diam

Andai saja arwahmu tak hembuskan kebisingan tak bertujuan

Aku akan rela pergi membuatmu buta di peta berarah

Kataku...

Egoisku muncul tak mau terluka tak mau lelah

Terpaku jalani hari denganmu tanpa jiwa dan raga

Kamu memang ada disini samarkan rasa yang tak terhingga jumlahnya

Namun dalam dirimu, aku bekerja tiap detik terasa membabu buta

Pikirmu...

Kamu disini buatku tenang ciumi nafasmu dalam deru

Menggebu-gebu dalam belukar pikiranku tanpa ampun

Mengoyak sanubari dibawah derasnya nafsu kalahkan nyata

Kamu penjarakan superegoku dalam id buas tak beraturan

Pikirku...

Aku tak sendiri

Ada kamu disini

yang senantiasa akan hadir padaku buat semua jadi nyata kembali

Tubuh yang menonggakmu akan kembali punya peran dalam kosongmu

dan Jiwanya

Akan senantiasa melunasi aku yang mulai rapuh

It Drives me Krezi

Hey-Hoooooooo

It has been really really really long time that I dont fill my blog.

*so sad actually, but I have many activities that should be my priority right now and I just can't afford to avoid that. huhuhu ='(

started with ExShit Level Test *upppssss, sorry, Exit Level Test I mean =P

Exit Level Test is a test that must be participated by all students in English Education Department, class 2009.

maybe you are wondering, what kind of test we should pass by.

First, there is speaking test which I have finished this day and yesterday.

and please dont ask me how was it going, I WILL NEVER EVER TELL YOU.

and the second one, there will be written test which is going to be held by tomorrow morning.

*wish us luck guys

Written test consists of reading comprehension, listening section, and grammar *WOW

but I heard that written test will be writing an essay.

*whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaattttttttttttttttt???? (the intonation is the same with a minion in Despicable Me Movie =P)

okay then, just pray the Lord, hope that He will help us with his miracle =P

and I really really really hope that all of us pass the test!

*AMEN

*PRAY