Another Story

Wait...
I got the story!
Here it goes
Their names are Cozbi and Corbi (I think I have ever heard that name before, but don't worry (just like she always said to me) it will be okay)
Cozbi is Corbi's friend. They are close enough. They support each other (I don't know, I have no references about this one)
and me? me is the supporting character who always wants to be seen in any scene (perhaps)

In some day :
"I don't think I can't make it, I hesitate for this one" said Cozbi
(Me crying)
Oh noooo! Don't be worried! I always do that, that's why people recognize me as the weak and sensitive one.

The time flies
Yay! The time won't stop for any reason!
(I hate why I can't be God!)
But time is not to blame!
Nothing is not to blame, anyway

I'm scared! scared of the day
The day when I have to let go
It seems like the dagger just stabs in your chest
and you're bleeding, you are in pain, you are screaming inside,
but the only feeling you do feel is just emptiness
It would be empty!
Do you feel that? huh? Do you?
when I want to cry all I can do is just going to the bathroom
and crying and screaming out loud, so that nobody would hear you in pain
nobody would see you crying
because nobody would understand!
Do you hear me? I'M IN PAIN!
It's useless anyway, Cozbi would never listen.

Do you have to sacrifice your happiness for the other happiness's sake?
That's what I'm doing right now!
Everything needs sacrifice, eh?




"I'm sorry Maddy"
Corbi said to me

Welcome Morning!

I welcome you morning...
With these weak eyes seeing, with these hands typing, with these ears listening to the music.
Unfortunately
I'm trapped in the dark room with so many dead stuffs
My head is banging here and there with uncertain feelings
I know something, the balloon just goes up
Pumped up by music and it sets my mood instantaneously

Finally I'm crying for something unsure

I dont know, I just want to hit the hay
and dream of you
Start the day with the sun shining
and I? will be smiling
all day

Ohh... Functional Grammar

This book entitled "Making Sense of Functional Grammar"
The first time I bought and saw the book, I wondered why the title should put the phrase "Making Sense"?
Is this book non-sense?
Or... Is the Subject non-sense?
Or... what?
Slow but sure I learn the subject very carefully, why? because THIS SUBJECT IS REALLY REALLY NON-SENSE!!!
So, no wonder if Gerot and Wignell tried to make sense the subject. -__-"

err.. I should be thankful so much for you both! thank you, really I do.

It is indeed really true, theory without practicing is nothing and the reverse.
Maybe that is one of the reasons why my lecturer gives us so many assignments that should be compiled by tomorrow.
*Tepok jidat

K! MAM! K!

with this weak body and soul, I will try to do my best!!!
*FIREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

Ahh Forget! tomorrow is the last class. *sedih oge

Karenamu...

Is this what you want, mum?
See your little daughter crying over night for something you dont really know?
See your little sunshine burying herself alive for something you are not really sure?

Good mother...

You have chosen the best choice for your little sunshine to die
Not by choking, shooting, or giving your little daughter a poison.
By this way, you have killed your lovely daughter inside.
You steal your precious daughter's life.
Do you know what 'life' means for your little sunshine?
Do you know that?
Can you feel what your little flower feel?

Do you know that your little daughter hates you so much now?

Because of this?

Sometimes, there is a thing you dont have to know
Sometimes, It is me who know what is right or what is wrong.

It is too late
"Mah, aku sudah mati, aku tak punya hidup lagi, hidupku sudah pergi..
iya..... karenamu"

"If you want me to change, well I change for good"

Kini, lagi.
Kembali kurajut benang kusut dalam lara.
Kembali berada pada aku yang salah.
Kembali mencoba berubah walau sudah menyerah.

Hey kamu, aku tau kamu cinta bebas
kamu tau aku cinta kamu?
Tapi sudah seharusnya cintaku bukan alasan
alasan kamu menjadi tidak cinta bebas

"If you want me to change, well I change for good"

Biarkan aku yang sakit

Biarkan aku terus menangis

Biarkan aku terus menahan perih

dan...

Biarkan aku belajar

Belajar mengikhlaskanmu

Hingga pada akhirnya

Aku benar-benar bisa melepasmu

tanpa luka...

Aku pernah sepertimu...

Aku pernah menjalani transisi seperti itu
Aku pernah dimana aku berada dalam lubang besar hingga tak temukan sedikitpun cahaya
Aku pernah mengalami titik terendah dalam hidupku
Aku pernah ketika aku memutuskan untuk berubah saja
Aku pernah tidak peduli dengan diriku dan perasaanku
Aku pernah tidak hiraukan wejangan-wejangan para sahabat dan ibuku
Aku pernah tak mau raih tangan-tangan yang berusaha menolongku
Aku pernah menolak berbagai hati yang tulus untuk mencintaiku
Aku pernah berada dalam kelam namun tetap saja hidup

Hey! Aku pernah sepertimu...

Namun kini, aku akan selalu menjadi sepertiku
Aku hanya punya satu kesempatan hidup
dan yang aku mau?
Aku mau menjadi sepertiku
Hanya itu.

Just... Dont let me go

"Never Say Never"
The Fray

Some things we don't talk about
Rather do without
And just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of
Together all the while

You can never say never
While we don't know when
But time and time again
Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

Picture, you're the queen of everything
As far as the eye can see
Under your command
I will be your guardian
When all is crumbling
To steady your hand

You can never say never
While we don't know when
Time, time, time again
Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

We're pulling apart and coming together again and again
We're growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

  

Taken from : www.azlyrics.com

By the time I write this, I am doing my assignment. I have to finish this essay and submit it tomorrow morning.

Accompanied by Ria (My laptop), Gradi (my cellphone), Pinkah and Monyooot (my notebook), Ori (my Oxford Dictionary), a piece of copy entitled "The House on Mango Street", an empty glass of milk, a song by The Fray "Never say Never", and the last is your virtual.

I feel that I have many distraction to do this essay. I haven't finished it yet, I am distracted by blogging. I just want to write what I feel. now I feel like I dont want to write the essay, and I prefer blogging to essay-ing << maksakeun.

Hmm, maybe you can read the lyric of The Fray above, that's what I feel right now.

Your virtual is just not enough, I never can't get enough.

I need the real you to complete this hole digging on me.

Oh ya, talking about the essay I should write more or less 250-300 words. and I have reached 131 words, and I'm afraid I write too much, because once I write, I just can't stop it. Moreover I still got many idea I want to put it into, Goddamnit! what am I supposed to do? err... just write, dont lose your idea, write it down quickly! suddenly remember a tissue from J.co << FYI I LOVE THIS ONE! REALLY!

Tssaaaaah!!! I wish I could reach you wherever you are!

".....And just hold the smile, falling in and out of love...."

"The House on Mango Street" for hours

The House on Mango Street

Been sitting
For hours
Reading the short story entitled "The House on Mango Street"
Many times
No
Thousand times I should read this
To know the story beyond the story

Yes you know
I got troubles
still dont get the point
confused, I am
asked to type it on word
Alright
and sent it through electronic mail
Okay
and voila!
You enlightened this

Many ideas running in this head
Make "The House on Mango Street" work
for hours
Finally...



How lucky I am having you in my life...

while listening to One Republic ft Sara Bareilles "Come Home"

Asa & Kemeja

Katamu...

Apa yang sedang kau lakukan?

Berbaring tanpa raga tak membuatmu kehilangan makna

Kau sematkan aku dalam tiap rajutan benangnmu dalam diam

Andai saja arwahmu tak hembuskan kebisingan tak bertujuan

Aku akan rela pergi membuatmu buta di peta berarah

Kataku...

Egoisku muncul tak mau terluka tak mau lelah

Terpaku jalani hari denganmu tanpa jiwa dan raga

Kamu memang ada disini samarkan rasa yang tak terhingga jumlahnya

Namun dalam dirimu, aku bekerja tiap detik terasa membabu buta

Pikirmu...

Kamu disini buatku tenang ciumi nafasmu dalam deru

Menggebu-gebu dalam belukar pikiranku tanpa ampun

Mengoyak sanubari dibawah derasnya nafsu kalahkan nyata

Kamu penjarakan superegoku dalam id buas tak beraturan

Pikirku...

Aku tak sendiri

Ada kamu disini

yang senantiasa akan hadir padaku buat semua jadi nyata kembali

Tubuh yang menonggakmu akan kembali punya peran dalam kosongmu

dan Jiwanya

Akan senantiasa melunasi aku yang mulai rapuh

It Drives me Krezi

Hey-Hoooooooo

It has been really really really long time that I dont fill my blog.

*so sad actually, but I have many activities that should be my priority right now and I just can't afford to avoid that. huhuhu ='(

started with ExShit Level Test *upppssss, sorry, Exit Level Test I mean =P

Exit Level Test is a test that must be participated by all students in English Education Department, class 2009.

maybe you are wondering, what kind of test we should pass by.

First, there is speaking test which I have finished this day and yesterday.

and please dont ask me how was it going, I WILL NEVER EVER TELL YOU.

and the second one, there will be written test which is going to be held by tomorrow morning.

*wish us luck guys

Written test consists of reading comprehension, listening section, and grammar *WOW

but I heard that written test will be writing an essay.

*whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaattttttttttttttttt???? (the intonation is the same with a minion in Despicable Me Movie =P)

okay then, just pray the Lord, hope that He will help us with his miracle =P

and I really really really hope that all of us pass the test!

*AMEN

*PRAY

SALAH gue apa siii??!!!

SALAH gue apa si??!!!

HEY! gue adalah salah satu pelanggan SETIA dari salah satu operator yang ada di Indonesia!

"HEH gue udah setia sama lo!!!"

Nomer ini udah diaktifin dari semenjak gue SMP! dari SEMENJAK GUE SMP! (Gue ulang biar kalian semua tau, dengar, rasakan penderitaan gue selama ini)

Dari situ, yang namanya MASALAH gak pernah berehenti!

"Lo emang bener-bener bikin hari gue SURAM!! "

KALI ini gue bener-bener dibuat kesel sama Nomer 929* yang mengadakan Gebyar Pulsa dan tentu saja MENYEDOT PULSA GUE HINGGA HABIS DALAM WAKTU BEBERAPA MENIT SAJA!!!

WOW!!!

*Tepuk Kaki*

gue udah UNREG tapi katanya permintaan gue tidak dapat dimengerti, jadi ini gue mesti gimanaaaa???

M-TRONIK  berbaik hati mengirimkan pulsa regular pada nomer gue sebesar Rp. 10.000 pada tanggal 28 Juni 2011 jam 9.08 pm.

sekarang, LIAT kelakuan si nomer 929* ini pada tanggal yang sama tapi di jam yang berbeda yaitu jam 11.13 pm, dia MENGERUK PULSA GUE sebesar Rp. 5000!

Come on guys! GUE BELUM PAKETIN BB GUE karna TANGGUNG, mending besok aja *gue pikir*

Tapi liat apa yang dilakukanya?

Dia merampas hak milik gue! dia merampas kesucian gue! (kayanya kata-kata terakhir gk perlu juga)

yang paling MENCENGANGKAN, liat KONTEN nya!

LIAT sama kalian!!

TEGA bener dia bilang kalo gue pengen liat ANANG&ASHANTI lagi main!

demi apapun yah, GUE GK PEDULI SAMA SEKALI!!!

MEREKA MAU JUMPALITAN KEK, MAU MAIN SANA SINI KEK, MAU MAIN UUCINGAN KEK!

URANG TEU PADULIIIII!!!!!

Yang gue peduliin, PULSA gueeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

kenapa lo TEGA banget sih sama gue, hah?!! *nangis di pojokan

Yang gue tau selama ini, gue udah setia sama lo! bertahun-tahun menjalani hubungan ini sama lo! tapi apa yang gue dapet??? APA????!!!

INI??? IYAAA???!!!

Pulangkan saja gue sama ibu gue!!

Gue GK PERNAH REGISTRASI sama sekali, tapi kenapa masih juga lo MENYEDOT pulsa gue, wahai lo DEMENTOR penghisap pulsaaaaa???!!!

*masih nangis di pojokan sambil foto-foto*

-------

ternyata perkara tidak selsai sampai disitu, TIDAK SELSAI!

kayanya dia sengaja pengen gue gantung diri di pohon toge karna dia!!

F!

YAP!!!

Lalu gue pun untuk cepat-cepat telepon customer service dari operator tersebut.

Voila! Dia bilang kalo untuk memberhentikanya, ketik STOP!

yah ketik STOP!

bukan UNREG! BUKAN!

cepet-cepet gue pun mengetik kata-kata STOP dengan sepenuh jiwa raga agar semua ini dapat terselsaikan, agar semua kesakitan ini dapat segera hilang. walaupun pulsa gue yang jadi taruhanya.

Oia, si CS itu juga bilang kalo untuk pemberhentianya DIKENAKAN BIAYA juga!

WHAT THEEEE????

UDAH GUE KAGA REGISTRASI, TIBA-TIBA DIA DATENG NYEDOT PULSA GUE BERKALI-KALI, SEKARANG GUE STOP JUGA MESTI BERBAYAR???!!!

ada apa dengan pelayanan operator ini????

Pertanyaan ini sering muncul dalam benakku, entah mengapa....

Okay, enough!

akhirnya gue ketik STOP!

tapi apa katanya???

Bisa diperkirakan apa yang dia bilang???

NIH!

"SERVICE TEMPORARILY UNAVAILABLE" 

HOW COME???

Are you joking me, or something???!!!

as usual!

wanna know the fact??

Ketika gue mengetik UNREG tersebut balasan sms nya super duper kencang sekali.

dia bilang katanya permintaan gue tidak dapat dimengerti.

berkali-kali gue mengetik UNREG walaupun tanpa hasil dan pulsa yang selalu berkurang.

sekarang gue ketik STOP yang katanya memang seperti itu untuk pemberhentian layanan ini, tapi ternyata balasan sms pun datang dengan sangat lamban, dan dia bilang service temporarily unavailable.

Bisa kalian tarik kesimpulan sendiri.

inilah potret buram pelayanan di Indonesia.

The new absurdity -___-"

Just now!

This was happened JUST NOW!

I asked one of my besties, PUDAR, about "something" err, maybe it's better left unsaid.

and as usual, our talk was expanding to the things which are absurd -___-"

just see on the screenshot below!

FIRST!

She asked me "when will you come to Bandung?"

I answered it with some jokes "Tomorrow I'll be there, hahahaha. No, On July 4, why? You miss me, right?"

then, she told me "No, I just want to remind you to bring some new dvd films :D"

SECOND!!

I told her like this "I dont wanna buy in my hometown cuz the cost is too expensive and they (the dvd's seller) just have a few of dvd films, but I'd like to buy Korean Drama Series, Let's watch it!"

(I know she really doesn't like Korean things, whatever it is, the films, the artists, the songs, etc)

and she answered my invitation using Hindi "Nehiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii" (Nehi in Hindi means "No")

so, I had a great idea to invite her to watch India movie.

(I thought it would annoy her, but I was WRONG guys!!!)

because she answered "That's great =*!"

all I can do?

Putting the emoticon "straight face" as you can see on the screenshoot.

F! stands for.... -___-"

Yesterday I was texting with one of my besties BOYAN regarding to talk about the exit level test which will be held on July 5th 2011.

Look at this screenshot that shows our conversation!

Okay, to make it clear let me explain to you about the signs

*The blue arrow shows you the way, where the conversation was running

*The red circle shows the absurdity of this conversation -___-"

Firstly, I came up with F! which means it stands for (I'm sorry) Fcuk

and then she replied my text and ended her text with G!

she continued the alphabet after F, that is G!.

I thought this would be an absurd conversation.

And Yeah, I was right. this was absurd.

so to end up all of this absurdity, 

I put the sign -__-" to show that "okay this has to be over"

because I did not know what to say again.

-_______-"

Light me...

"In order for the light to shine so brightly, the darkness must be present."
-Francis Bacon- 

"I am building a fire, and everyday I train, I add more fuel. At just the right moment, I light the match."
-Mia Hamm-

"There are two kinds of light - the glow that illuminates, and the glare that obscures."
-James Thurber-

and... the light will fade away as well as the darkness comes

 -Velentina-

Quotes Source : www.brainyquote.com 

Protes, Kritikan, dan Komentar T__T

DP (Display Picture) di BBM gue sering sekali mendapat hujatan, hinaan, protes dan kritikan pedas dari para kontakers gue (lebay aja sih yah biar ramai, biar mengaduh sampai gaduh)

-___________-"

SATU! waktu DP di BM gue yang ini :

Komentator : "Eh apaan si itu? (gue dalem hati : udah jelas-jelas itu tangan, PAKE NANYA!) gk jelas banget sih dp nya"

gue : yaude gue ganti (dengan rasa yang berat hati serta ikhlas (apa maksud ini) gue pun mengganti DP gue))

DUA! pas DP BM gue yang ini:

Komentator : "Ih gk jelas! apaan cuma keliatan bibir, tangan ama *tuuuuttt*"

gue : (ribet amat si ni orang emg DP yg kaya gimana sih yg dia harepin? hemeeeeh) IYE GUE GANTI!

TIGA! DP ketiga!

ini kucing yang ada di kosan gue, pas dia mangap kebetulan gue lagi pegang henpon, gue poto aja nih kucing lebay satu.

Komentator : "ahahaha, DP nya lucu, kucing siapa?"

Gue : (giliran kucing yg gue tampilin dibilang lucu geura) "kucing kosan ini tuh"

Komentator : "ohh dikirain kucing kamu"

Gue : "bukan, hehehe"

karna merasa terintimidasi karna ini bukan kucing gue, gue ganti lagi DP gue

EMPAT!

Komentator : "bagus DP nya"

gue : "iya dooong"

Komentator : "suka ama bendera inggris?"

gue : "iya"

Komentator : "kenapa nggak kamar nya di cat bendera inggris?"

gue : (gue juga MAU! INGIN SEKALI! tapi apa daya tangan tak sampai -___-") "iya pengen, tapi belum kesampean"

Komentator : "emang knp gitu?"

gue : *tutup BM, malas jawab*

karna tidak bisa ngecat kamar gue dengan bendera inggris, akhirnya gue pun mengganti DP gue lagi.

LIMA!

perlu diketahui dan dicatat! ini POTO GUE ASLI! tanpa tipuan, tanpa paksaan, tanpa pengorbanan! *naoon

Komentator : "WOW, SEXY! HOT banget lu le"

gue : "hehehehe" (agak tersipu malu dan err.. agak gk enak kali yaa)

Komentator : "boleh gue save kaga?"

Gue : "sok aja"

Komentator "masih ada yang lain gk? yg ini KURANG HOT"

Gue : *mikir* (asa gk sinkron ama pernyataan yg pertama ama yg kedua) -___-"

pada akhirnya gue memiliiiiiiiihhh *tutup BM, malas jawab*

ENAM!

Komentator : "Eh bagus DP nya, siapa yang gambar? pasti temen kuliah yaaa?"

Gue : *dalam hati* (dia tau banget pasti bukan gue yg gambar)

"Iya doong, hehehee, qo tau sih bukan gue yg gambar?"

Komentator : "tau dong, kan lu gk bisa gambar"

Gue : *korek2 tanah

GANTI DP keTUJUH!

Komentator : "itu DP nya, kaya yang gk pernah disekolahin aja"

Gue : "itu bukan gue, SUER!"

(baris kedua gue pun bilang lagi)

Gue : "yaudah diganti deh ='("

KeDELAPAN!!!

(perlu diketahui, gue memang sedang suram kala itu, mangkanya pemilihan DP nya ya kurang lebih yg kaya begini begini dah -___-")

Komentator : "suram amat sih lu"

Gue : "iya ya?" (gue sudah pasrah dan tidak mau melanjutkan semuanya lagi, sehingga gue putuskan saja untuuuukkkkk, ganti DP)

SEMBILAN!!!

nah kalo DP yang ini masih ada BUKTI OTENTIK nya yang PROTES sama DP gue!

Cekidooootzzz!

(sangat begitu menyedihkan sekali dan DALEM!)

jadi disini gue gk perlu bilang apa-apa lagi ya? walaupun dengan susah payah gue melakukan pembelaan terhadap diri sendiri namun tetap saja hasilnya nihil, karna dengan menghujat kembali dia TIDAK BERHASIL mameeeeennn! F! malah gue yg jadinya ganti DP! SIAL!

pada akhirnya inilah DP ke SEPULUH gue!!!

(berdoa semoga gk ada lagi yg protes)

Sudah cukup penderitaan ini wahai para komentatooor!

(lebay aja sih kan biar ramai =p)

semua nama dan gaya berbicara serta bentuk tulisan, gue SAMARKAN! ingat! gue SAMARKAN!

bukan apa-apa mungkin ada yg keberatan dengan tulisan ini (emang beratnya berapa kilo sih? -___-")

atau mungkin ada yg kurang berkenan, jeung sajabana!

Akhir kata dari penulis

semoga tulisan ini bermanfaat (walaupun tau kaya nya nggak deh)

dan membawa anugrah serta pahala bagi yang membaca. AMIIIIN! (bilang aja pengen dibaca -___-")

Ditulis oleh : Velentina Rizki Sutari

NIM : 0900665

Status : Single tapi nggak << Penenangan diri aja sih

-_______-"

For your further reading (berasa ini tulisan ada source nya gitu ya, biarin ahh biar ramai =p)

Facebook : Velentina Rizki Sutari

Twitter : @Velentina

Blog : Goaheadvelentina.blogspot.com

Tumblr : Velentina.tumblr.com

Formspring : Velentina Rizki Sutari

(kaga penting sih, bae da =p)

I like it when she falls asleep =)

She is cute when she falls asleep

moreover if she falls in my hands

suddenly, her eyes are closed.

her body turns to be weak

her voice slowly disappears

that is when I stroke her fur

I see her cute face

I touch every inch of her body

She is my Kitty

The one that is always willing to accompany me in my everyday.

JJM

Here it is

Let me show you what is happening on my BBM's profile

so desperate, is it?

so hopeless, is it?

Yes indeed.

Feel the night =)

The time when I Give you my everything is like a G6 on the floor.

The Time

 

 

 

 

 

 

Give me everything

Like a G6

On the floor

Titik dan Koma

Hari ini

saya hanya ingin menangis

titik

Hari ini

saya hanya ingin merenung

titik

Hari ini

saya hanya ingin meraung

titik

Hari ini

saya tersiksa lahir batin

titik

Hari ini

saya terpecut marah

titik

Hari ini

saya terisak tragis

titik

Hari ini

saya hanya ingin pergi

saya hanya ingin hilang

sayya hanya ingin mati

koma

Comma vs Fullstop

Being me is non-sense

Being me is non-sense

Being me is difficult

Being me is complicated

Being with me means unhappy

Being with me means miserable

Being with me means sorrowful

Lord knows

I know

and

They know

sometimes, I wanna be somebody else

So that I can take everything as easy as breathing

sometimes, I wanna run far far away

So that nobody finds me nowhere

sometimes, I wanna hide myself in the back

So that everybody sees me as no one

Lets see in Lord's eyes

Perfection?

Integrity?

Precision?

Lets see in their eyes

Peeking?

Glancing?

Staring?

Lets see in my eyes

Weakness?

Faintness?

Paleness?

To Lord

I am indeed a coward

To them

I am indeed a loser

To you

I am indeed a faint heart

To me

I am indeed a non-sense creature

But

To me

I am a human who can see, hear, and feel.

Fill in the Blank!

Here are some signatures which I collected a few months ago.

and I want you to guess whose signature it is and fill it in the blank if you are already know.

and to help you, I would love to give some description of the person below the signature.

hahahahahaha

just a game =D

1.

she is one of my besties.

she uses veil

she likes smiling

she likes all about japanese and korean things

she has err.. which word to subtitute 'gingsul' in English?

she is .......................

2.

she is one of my besties.

she likes dangdut music.

she likes money, coffee, and milk.

she uses veil.

she has beautiful eyes

she has a wide lips =p

she is ...........................

3.

she is one of my besties

err.. she likes everything about elephants

she likes blue

she uses veil

she has many acne on her face =p

she is ............................

4.

she is one of my besties

she likes cooking

she likes everything about vintage

she has a thick lips =p

she is .....................

5.

he is one of my seniors in my college

he has a black skin

he uses glasses

=p

he is ....................

6.

he is errr... my ex.

7.

she is not a human

she is an animal which is called Monkey

she likes bananas

she likes being in a tree

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